[ To My Dearly ]

With Allah's love

Assalamu'alykum to all

I was searching for some images and I found one that matches my feeling all this time.

This image is dedicated to Abi, my beloved father....

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Abi, adik sayang Abi for ever and ever, more than ever....
Semoga Allah memberkati setiap detik dan saat dalam hidup Abi, amin....

Loving you dearly,
Cleo
~ Creating Ideas, Developing Words ~

[ A Relief ]

With Allah's love

Assalamu'alykum to all

Alhamdulillah, I'd just got back from some sort of dinner for a celebration of Open UKM at Bagan Lalang.

Some of my friends and seniors could not make it for they have other commitments. Hmm...

Pic at Bagan Lalang Beach

Anyway, the thing is, the moment I stepped on the beach, I felt like I'm flying "without wings"...

I felt the freedom for once in my life time since I was recruited into UKM's life.

How can I describe it even though it's just a slightest moment.

And the most memorable moment is when I got the chance to play on the beach. Being a student in 'here' made me become so stiff, so serious that I don't have any pleasure of being me.

I don't really care what people might say seeing me that way just now, because it's the only moment I had, to be me. I missed those moments when I used to go out, hold the ball in my palms, play and cheers out loud. Those moments lived long enough in here till just now, alhamdulillah, I had the chance to feel almost the same happy and cheerful feelings. But, of course, I was stopped by my dressing. I can't run all the way with baju kurung and formal shoes on the beach, of course. (I just got back from the class when the bus arrived.)

Oh Allah, how grateful I am for that moment. I prayed in my heart to stay like that for at least another day but still, I'm very grateful for You gave me a little chance to feel the freedom. Thank You, Allah for today.

By the way, the food served was really good. Like teacher Lela always says, "Mouth watering, delicious and fantastico!" I missed you so, teacher  =)

Well, for the end, all I could say is, I'm satisfied enough with today's activity. For some people, it may be nothing. But for me, it is something. Adios!

Wishing to replay the time,
Cleo
~ Creating Ideas, Developing Words ~

[ Back Off...? ]

With Allah's love

Assalamu'alykum to all

Getting up for my sleep this morning, I looked at my phone and there's one message received.

It's from abi.

It's a decision, a full stop to one of my activities in UKM. Abi had given his word, he had decided to tell me that I need to back off from SUKMA. Abi didn't give me the reason but to send a message in such an early morning, I believe it IS a very important one, and I know, I had to agree with abi.

Although I felt like I want to cry for not having the permission to continue, I still believe it is also maybe the best way for me. Allah had seen more, and He sends his message through my beloved father.

So, this is it. Right now, I'll just wait for abi to send an email, a letter for my coach about this situation. And tomorrow morning, the first thing to do is to meet my coach and give him the letter.

To my coach, Mr Faisal, I am so sorry to do such thing. I know, you've said it earlier not to back off after you wrote our names but it gives me no other choices. I am so sorry. I really am want to hold the gold medal as much as you do but still, I have other priority to be concerned to more than fencing. I am so sorry.

And tomorrow, officially I'm releasing myself from one of my biggest responsibilities forever. I hope with this, I can do much more better in other responsibilities, much much more with my 100% commitment and focus. Insya-Allah.

Aiming for the best,
Cleo
~ Creating Ideas, Developing Words ~