There’s a quote from Yasmin Ahmad’s Talentime that I love the most. It sounds like this;
" If the Moon can linger in the morning so bright, why can’t the Sun do the same at night? "
As I was walking back from my clinical rotation in Bons Secours Hospital today, the day was very beautiful and sunny, so I looked up to the blue sky spotted with white fluffy clouds to enjoy every moment of it and I realized the moon is still there not even hiding behind the clouds at 11.30 a.m. And so I remembered the quote from the movie and yes, it’s true. The Moon even lingers up till noon when the day is very sunny. But it would not even appear on a gloomy rainy day when the Sun is hiding not showing himself. So I started to have this kind of imagination and fantasy about the Sun and the Moon.
For me, I always think, the Sun as a male as it portrays the Masculine features of strong, bright but sometimes could be very vulnerable. The Moon on the other hand is the female, with endless beauty, very serene to look at but could be very lonely. They made a very good and perfect couple, like it was destined from Heaven.
Have you ever thought that the Sun and the Moon are actually lovers? Why not?
I mean because the Sun and the Moon are just like Adam and Eve. Without the Sun, the Moon will never exist to us as it only reflected the light from the Sun. So did Eve who was made from Adam’s rib, created to fill the spaces between Adam’s fingers. What a lovely couple the Sun and the Moon are, just like how lovely Adam and Eve were. Both couples were created in Heaven to shine upon all the mankind. It’s just that the love of the Sun and the Moon existed much longer before the love of Adam and Eve and their love persisted until today.
If the love of Adam and Eve is brought down from one generation to the next and the love breed filling every corner of the earth from the seed of love of Adam and Eve, the Sun and the Moon is different. Their love existed from the beginning of the world till the Day of Judgment and it will never change and it will never breed. Human’s Love blossoms from loyalty but can be full of cheat, treacherous and bitter to each other. But the Sun and the Moon always loyal to each other since the dawn of time up till now. Their love just never fades away like our love. That is the true power of Love.
Sadly, the Sun and the Moon live in separation. Never be able to live together like we did. No matter how strong their love is, they are not destined to be together in this lifetime. The Sun will appear on the day to shine on the mankind but the Moon can only appear in the night to entertain the heartbroken ones. One day the Moon said to the Sun;
“Oh my Love, you shine on the humans and made them happy for the rest of the day, and I will entertain them and give them a sense of peace and happiness in the night while they are making love, but truly I am lonely myself. You are never in my company. Will we be able to hold hands together like the human did?”
And so the Sun replied;
“Oh my Dear, I’m not trying to shine on them, but rather I’m shining my love on you so that you are not lonely. My light will make you glow beautifully and your beauty will make every eyes of the girls filled with envy and jealousy. We live in a world apart but I will always shine my love for you forever until The Lord Almighty bring us together in the Heaven.”
The Moon is satisfied with the answer but never content with it. She loves the Sun so much that it is unbearable for her to live in separation.
One day, the Moon thought to herself, my heart must never falter and I must be strong in order to be with the Sun. From today on, I will linger on the sky until morning just to see the Sun even if it’s only for a while. The Moon was trying to show and prove her endless love to the Sun. So she stays every morning until noon just to have a brief moment with the Sun even her light is never the same as the night time. Her beauty is fading by the morning and she is sad that she cannot show the Sun her beauty. Even both of them appear on the same morning, they can only look at each other from a distant. They can never be closed enough to hold hands or to embrace each other tightly. Even so, the Moon was very happy because they got to see each other. Sadly for the Sun, he can only see the pale face of the Moon starring at him every morning, not that brightly glowing and the beautiful Moon. So the Sun asked the Mon;
"Oh my Love, why do you look so pale and sad?"
The Moon replied;
“Oh my Love, I’m sad because I can’t be with you and above of all, I’m pale because you are shinning so bright. You showered me with so much love that it caused me so much pain just to think that I’m not with you.”
The Sun is confused so he asked the Moon;
“Oh my Love, do you want me reduce my love for you so that you can light up the morning sky with your glow and smile?”
Listening to that, the Moon said quickly;
"Oh my Love, Never. If you don’t shine your love on me then I will forever be in the dark even at night and the scar on me will never heal.”
So the Sun and the Moon continue to live like that. The Sun will shine the earth every day and when the night comes, the lonely Moon will try to cast the loneliness of the humans away. They got to see each other every morning and then they’ll be separated again. So the Moon is becoming greedier. She longs for the Sun every moment and watching him from a far every morning is not enough anymore.
So, the Moon asked the Sun again;
"Oh my Love, If I can linger in the morning so bright, why can't you do the same at night? If you are present at night, I can always show you my beauty."
Hearing to the question, the Sun becomes clueless and don’t have the answer himself. He also wonders why can’t he shine at night. After giving some thought about it, the Sun replied;
"Oh my dear, have you forgotten the Words of Allah from the Holy Book of Al-Quran?"
So the Sun recited a verse of Al-Quran from Az-Zumar verse 5.
He has created the heavens and the earth with truth. He makes the night to go in the day and makes the day to go in the night. and He has subjected the sun and themoon. Each running (on a fixed course) for an appointed term. Verily, He is the All-Mighty, the Oft-Forgiving.
Listening to the verse, the Moon burst into tears and asked for Forgiveness from the Lord Almighty as she was trying to defy the rules of creation. Allah has made their destiny as so. She realizes that she could never be together with her beloved Sun. All she can do is to watch him from a far with pale, and sad eyes.
To ease the sadness of the Moon, the Sun then recited a verse from Al-Qiyamah, verse 9.
...and the sun and moon will be joined together (by going one into the other or folded up or deprived of their light).
“Oh My Love, there will be time when we will be together. Please be patient",the Sun said.
So the Moon and the Sun has been waiting and waiting until the Lord Almighty wishes them to meet each other.
The Sun and The Moon’s love is a very tragic love. Loving each other but never able to be together. There’s always that kind of love in this life that will never be able to be together in this world and surely Allah will grant your love wishes in the Heaven. Fate is in the Hand of Allah and Destiny is Allah’s haq for his servants. There will be time when your love will be realized. If Dunia Cinta is not for you, then Syurga Cinta is waiting for you. Adam and Eve met in Jabal Rahmah after years of searching and Allah fulfilled their love wishes. Just like the Sun and the Moon. Their love is destined to be together on the Day of Judgment. Allah has promised in Al-Qiyamah, when the Day of Judgment occurred is the time when the Sun and the Moon will meet. Oddly for them, in the chaos of the end of the world is the time for them to be happy forever.
For the love that is never to be realized in this world, I’m praying to God to give us the strength to be patient until the love comes to realize in the Paradise full of Happiness. Just wait like how the Sun and the Moon has been waiting for each other from the beginning of the world until the End of the World. Whenever you are tired of waiting, think of how long the Sun and the Moon have been waiting.
Remember Allah’s promise to those who are patient;
And those who remain patient, seeking their Lord’s Countenance, perform As-Salat (Iqamat-as-Salat), and spend out of that which We have bestowed on them, secretly and openly, and defend evil with good, for such there is a good end. (Ar-Rad, 22)
And also, for the unmarried couple who are so in love with each other, there’s a boundary of which you can’t cross. Never to touch what is not yours. Never take it too far until you are lost with love of lust until it became Nafsu Cinta. Just like the Moon and the Sun, they wait with patient for the time, so you should do the same. Your time will come when you tie the knot and you can touch whatever that is yours. Love is a form of Test from Allah. The lovey dovey thing would be for nothing and fruitless if it’s not purify with Ikhlas only for Allah’s sake. You want to harvest the sweetest fruit (pious children) coming out of your love. If you fail the test of love, then you would not reach the Paradise, do you? Patient is definitely what being tested in love. And those who are pious should be able to excel the test well. First Class Honors maybe.
Do you think that you will enter Paradise before Allah tests those of you who fought (in His Cause) and (also) tests those who are As-Sabirun (the patient)? (Ali-Imran, 142)
A woman is only halal for you when you marry her. Even if you change your Facebook status countless time, announcing you are now in relationship with that girl or that boy, nothing ever changes between you and her. Both of you remains ‘Haram’ for each other. So does engagement. Engagement would not automatically says she is ultimately yours. As I said before, marriage is the only way that you and your loved ones can act, live and love as a couple.
Allah saw said in Al-Quran :
Nor come nigh to adultery: for it is a shameful (deed) and an evil, opening the road (to other evils) ~ (Al-Isra’, 32)
And the Prophet described what is the form adultery from the Hadith.
Narrated Ibn ‘Abbas: I did not see anything so resembling minor sins as what Abu Huraira said from the Prophet, who said, “Allah has written for the son of Adam his inevitable share ofadultery whether he is aware of it or not: The adultery of the eye is the looking (at something which is sinful to look at), and the adultery of the tongue is to utter (what it is unlawful to utter), and the innerself wishes and longs for (adultery) and the private parts turn that into reality or refrain from submitting to the temptation.” (Sahih Bukhari)
Love is a funny thing, can be dangerous, can be tricky, can be a-long-tiring-endless-waiting, but if you love the right way you will surely touch the Heaven of Earth and the Heaven in the Hereafter.
Nothing less, Cleo
~ Creating Ideas, Developing Words ~
I've had enough travel for these two days and I really am too exhausted. Abi and my sis, Kak Ifa, people who knows each of my travelling details advised me to have a nice rest but I still can't get my back on the bed. There're so many in my mind that I want to share with someone and of course, to think about it once more before I start to forget every thing as I AM a forgetful person, unfortunately.
For the first thing is, this is the first time in my campus life that I had to live in here quite alone. Well, for the first three days shaken me a bit especially when some of my friends and my cousin, the one who stays in Ungku Omar kept teasing me about those things-you-know-what. Gosh, they really giving me a slight impact though. =P
Secondly, I had a very calm and peaceful day, every day without rushing to classes etc. I enjoyed my day at PTSL when there're no annoying voices around. Every one behaving goody goody plus I get my own time to surf for references and also get to sit between the shelves, which is my favourite thing to do in library. Nice. =)
Thirdly, I had a very meaningful adventure. A really meaningful that I don't think I can get any more than this one. Please, let me tell you bit by bit about it, shall we? =)
When I was on my way to KL Central, I met lots of people with lots of mind set. And I interpret them to myself and took some positive tips to myself such as, not everyone in this world is as lucky as I am. I give my gratefulness fully to Allah for guiding me a life like this when there are many people out there missing most likely enjoyable moments in their life. Alhamdulillah for my life, and for those people out there, may Allah always bless you in every moments you lived.
When I was at Pak Long Azmar's place, I met my grandparents, Atuk and Nenek, both had been a very long time-never-see person to me(and of course, my other siblings). Both of them were really happy to greet my sis and me. And the most touching scene was when I saw tears in Atuk's eyes. He must be really missing us, especially his daughter(Umi) because if I'm not mistaken, it's been years since they last meet up each other. My face looks just like Umi, and I think that gives him more reason to miss his daughter so much.
For the whole day, when other people came and took their places, did their parts in helping Pak Long and Mak Long in the preparation, Atuk can't stop introducing me to my not-so-familiar family members. They asked me about myself but Atuk was the one who's answering them for me. He's so excited to tell those people i'm studying Dakwah in UKM, etc. Oh God. He seems to be very happy and glad that I took this course. I was stunned at that moments. I can't even take a look at Atuk's eyes. I felt so guilty for what I did all this time, trying to refuse the fact that I'm in this field, keep telling myself how regret I am about this fate. O Allah, forgive me for what I've done....
That night, after everyone's gone, and leaving only our nearest family members, chatting outside the house, I joined my grandparents and sat beside them. The first thing Atuk asked was how's my Arabic. Oh my God. All I could say was, "Emmmm...." Oh dear.... Knowing what I felt at that time, Nenek said to me, "Biar susah macam mana pun, biar banyak halangan dan cabaran macam mana pun, jangan mudah mengaku kalah. Sebab tu, orang dulu cakap seluk pekasam biar sampai ke pangkal lengan. Harung je semua tu, jangan ikutkan rasa lemah dalam hati tu." Oh God.... If Abi was there, I think I won't be able to hold my tears. How I felt so sorry for them and for myself. They put high enough hope to see me become someone expert in Islam, but what did I do to make it become real...? I can't, because I know my limits but I don't have guts to say those words to them, seeing the heart tears apart. Oh God.....
On my way back to UKM, I counter a very tiring adventure. Firstly before I forgot, there're still people who did not being a sensible person. On my way from Wangsa Maju to KL Central, there're a group of oldies foreigner, get into the LRT from Pasar Seni if I'm not mistaken. The thing is, those youngsters didn't offer them their seats. How rude they are. When I said oldies, I mean they ARE oldies, really old that the guy(maybe the grandfather) had white hair and can't even stand straight that his wife, I think had to hug him to prevent him from falling down when the LRT's moving. Gosh. After we passed through two stations, a mother(a bit younger than them) offered her seat to that old man, and only ONE of the youngsters, offer her seat to the wife. And the rest of the group, maintain standing till the got out at KLCC station. Hmm...
Okay, back to my journey, I bought the ticket and not for long, lost it after I bought my lunch. Then, refuse to take any more of my time searching for it, I bought a new one. And when I got to the platform, I missed the commuter, which is I won't be at that situation if I didn't lost my ticket. But then, when I got into the second commuter, I had to stand in front of a mysterious looking guy, wearing a pair of glasses like the terminator. Creepy guy with hood.
And then, something worse happened. All of us, the passenger had to clear up the commuter as that thing need to go and 'fetch' another commuter, which was stranded at the next station. So, all of us need to wait for other commuter. Argh.... Standing outside, with that kind of weather, and heavy luggage, each of us showed 1001 faces to each other. Some of us talking non-stop, some kept listening to their mp3, and most of us just stare at the empty railway. And the one I hated most was that guy, SMOKING at the public, just a few metres behind me. GOD! What was he thinking! Luckily it's not the day when I can come out as a Hulk or something. If not, I think I'll just slash him with my blade (which I brought along, thinking I'll got the chance to go back to Penang) thousands time till the smell of his smoke disappear from my head. Gosh. I HATE SMOKERS who can't choose the right time to smoke.
Geez. Whatever. Forget about that guy. The journey continues when all of us had to stand for about an hour to wait for another one commuter. This one, when it arrived, was already packed with passengers but all of us didn't care bcause we can't aford to wait any longer at that place. It's too hot and tiring.
At first, I hate the condition but then, after a few stopping, I managed to save myself to a 'safe' zone. I met this family, all of the members are teenagers. They were a father, a big brother, and three sweet sisters. I didn't have the mood to talk to any of them(my usual mood whenever I walk alone actually) but not long after we were 'together', the big brother, asked me something. Well, I guess he's been looking at the blade for quit a long time, like other people but his interest give him guts to ask. No doubt at all when people ask you about what is that you were holding? when you are the only one holding something like that, rite? LOL
But he did know something about my blade. He asked me what was that, but before I could answer, of course taking some time, stunned when a stranger talked to you, he answered it himself, "It's a blade for fencing, right?" Well, that's what a really shocking to me. Anyone else, can't tell themselves the actual sport's name, and still in their blurry mind if I said, "It's fencing." But not him. He did know something about fencing, for sure. I just smiled, and said, "Ahah, it's fencing's blade."
Well, we talked a bit, watched by his father(who looked interested enough to listen to me, talking a bit about fencing) and her sisters, looking a bit amazed and can't take their eyes of the blade, God-knows-why. He seems to be finished in his study, I guess when I heard he said, "Interesting, UKM having fencing as co-curricular activities," and his eldest sister said to him, "Why don't you further your study, in Master at UKM? At least you could have some time to try and learn more about it." But, well, he gave an answer I expected from a guy, "No, thanks. I'm done with studies etc." Well, all I could say, he's a guy. =)
Then, it's time to be apart. Without saying anything to them, I just got out of the commuter when we arrived at UKM station. I'm not trying to be rude but I need to be faster and go through a jungle of guys in front of the exit before I'm save outside.
Well, there you are. I've told my not-so-detailed journey for this holiday. Alhamdulillah, there's nothing worst happened and thanks to Allah who always at my side, protecting me and my sis from any harm.
Until we meet again, adios. =)
Missing Penang, Cleo
~ Creating Ideas, Developing Words ~
I know, and I believe, each time Allah is there to teach me at least something for a day in my life. And I believe, Allah still there for me. For today, this is one of the prove for my statement.
He wants me to find this post today, to calm me down and keep going, keep doing the best in me for this life and never ever give up anymore.
As this post did to me, I want it to do the same to you, for those who reads this post.
May your day will be better tomorrow and for the rest of it, insya-Allah... =)
A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as though just as one problem was solved, a new one arose.
Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to a boil.
In the first, she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil, without saying a word.
In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what you see."
Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.
Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did, and noted that they were soft.
The mother then asked the daughter to take the egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg.
Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee.
The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma.The daughter then asked, "What does it mean, mother?"
Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently.
The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.
The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.
The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water."Which are you?"she asked her daughter. "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?" Think of this: Which am I?
Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?
Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, ... but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and a hardened heart?
Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.
When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.
Cleo: I wish, I wish, with all my heart,
that me and my beloved friends will be like the coffee bean,
so that all of us will always in the blessings of Allah,
and reach higher level of as-sobirin...
Wishing better in life, Cleo
~ Creating Ideas, Developing Words ~
Alhamdulillah....ku bersyukur ke hadrat Mu, Allah... Tamat sudah segalanya malam ini... Alhamdulillah...
Hmm... Kebelakangan ni mood lebih untuk type dalam bahasa Melayu. Okay lah. Tak ada hal. =)
Leganya terasa... Malam tadi dah lepas sedikit beban, tamat sudah sesi choir untuk FESSAT. Tapi dengar kata kami diserap pulak dah jadi kumpulan koir KTHO. Ya Allah, penat terasa menyusup jiwa bila dengar tu. Hmm..
Alhamdulillah, lepas ni boleh la concentrate untuk fakulti pulak. Insya-Allah, zizah, cuba yang terbaik untuk segala tanggungjawab yang diamanahkan. Jangan sekali pun terabai kerna ia mengundang azab yang pedih daripada Allah kelak. Ingat lah wahai diri ku, moga kau sentiasa berhati-hati hendaknya...
Hmm...Cuti Chinese New Year dah nak dekat. Tinggal lima hari je lagi... Hmm... Tak decide lagi nak balik ke tak.... Nak balik, reason : rindu kat semua... Tak nak balik : Kat umah sudah pastinya zizah ni tak tengok buku... Dah jadi tabiat...adoih... Tak mau la cari pasai... Isnin tu lepas cuti terus exam maharat. Jangan dok cari pasai la, Zizah. Arab kita tak mantap, tok sah la dok buat main ceq na....
Hmm... Banyak betul nak cerita ni... Tapi, tak apa. Lepas ni boleh update lagi blog ni. =)
Biarlah yang ni sebagai perkongsian terakhir untuk hari ni...
Tadi masa fencing, terasa bahagia and puas hati yang amat. Ya Allah, betapa ku bersyukur atas nikmat rasa kepuasan ini... Puas sebab dapat pegang blade dalam masa yang agak panjang dari selalu. Bukan setakat blade foil saje, sekali dengan epee and saber. Waaahhh....
Terasa puas yang amat sebab dapat belajar saber. Ya Allah, betapa ku mencintai saber. Sedari awal mendengar nama saber, hati ku telah berkata, itulah yang akan amat ku sanjungi, hanya dengan mendengar sahaja. Dan Tuhan ku, betapa pedih terasa di hati ini pabila mengenangkan hilangnya peluang ku tika ku mengundurkan diri... Tika ku mula menyintai fencing, mula bersemangat tuk memahami dan mendalaminya, telah ditakdirkan ku untuk berpisah darinya. Ku tahu, dan ku yakini, sememangnya hikmah di sebalik ini terlalu besar buat diri ku, kerna telah ku rasainya di kala ini. Namun tidak dapat ku nafikan, bergenang jua di pancaindera ini tatkala bilah pedang itu digenggam erat di telapak ini...
Telah ku lali dan fahami, setiap yang ku cintai perlu ku korbankan, demi keredhaan Mu duhai Penciptaku... Telah ku lali dengan 'perpisahan' yang tidak ku duga itu, kerna ianya tatkala hati ini sudah bertekad untuk bersamanya selamanya.... Saber, hadir dan pergi seperti yang lain. Bukan ku ingin ingkari, dan bukan ku ingin menempa murka-Mu, ya Rabb. Ku memohon pada-Mu Allah, tenangkan lah hati ini, buangkanlah kesedihan ini jauh dari ku, ya Allah. Sungguh, ku kan cuba redha dengan segala ketentuan Mu, ya Allah. Dan ku perlu bantuan Mu untuk mengatasi segalanya, wahai Yang Memahami...
Saber, moga suatu hari nanti kita berpeluang bertemu kembali...
Betapa ku akan merindui mu selama perpisahan ini, saber...
Sungguh, tidak ada yang menggantikan mu, kerna kau lah yang ku cintai sedari awal perkenalan...
Kerna kau lah satu-satunya yang menerima hati ini hanya kerna ku ingin lebih mengenali dan bersama mu, saber.
Saber, for the last time, I wish I could be with you till the end. I wish I could turn the time back. But it wasn't my choice. It was out of my range.
I wish, I wish, with all my heart, to meet Saber again no matter how and why, as long as I could be with Saber for a moment.
All out ~ Cleo
~ Creating Ideas, Developing Words ~