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With Allah's love

Assalamu'alykum, my dear

Dracula Untold.

Explores the origin of Dracula, weaving vampire mythology with the true history of Prince Vlad the Impaler, depicting Dracula as a flawed hero in a tragic love story set in a dark age of magic and war.

Well, that's what they said in IMDB for this movie. I guess for me, it should be an interesting title if the story isn't about twisting history (as usual). From the very beginning, I saw a glimpse or the trailer when watching tv and said: rubbish story, again. Well of course, I did say that because I never like stories of dracula, vampires, what-so-ever including the Dark Shadows (Johnny Depp), didn't expect it to be so pathetic like this.

Readers, let's not be fooled. While you say, "It's just a movie," I hope it remain that way. Don't you ever let it twist your head to believe in it. If it does, then.. shame on you who said just a movie. As a Muslim, I do felt uneasy when history been told wrongly to the world. More and more, they just keep coming. From academic to general views. It happens. But insyaAllah, I will always try to make sure it won't twist me, and those around me. So, here it is. The truth of Dracula Untold. And I believe, the story is much more suited with the title after I read it. Don't you?

Dracula Untold - behind the scene

And, I'm sure this is just a part of the story. We shall see more coming, if I had the chance. InsyaAllah.

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Okay, this is out of topic, a bit. I've been reading the posts in UKM Confessions lately, well to be precise, I tried to find any interesting stories. The kind that makes you laugh and still laughing while saying, "Never knew this kind of human knows how to write a story." Well, I guess those have become a history. Now? The page is just full of crap. There's one of two things that captured me though.

1- A post about hear-say: Islamic studies's thesis are rubbish. Wow. What do you think about the Dracula Untold link I shared just now? Where did it came from huh? What do you think about those books you read? Those motivational, tips, even some other informations you get before, where do you think they come from? What? You think most of us just love to spend our months studying things and just write up crappy things? Waaaww. You really are something. Can't wait till you bang your head really hard, just to realise things around you.

2- They still fighting about seniors vs juniors. Sheeessshhh. What a joke, these bunch of kids. Islam told us to care, to respect whoever we met, whoever we knew. There's no limit to do good things. And there's no limit in appreciating people around us. They might forgotten about this, and I'm not sure if someone had shared this in there or not.

"Tidaklah seorang muda menghormati pada orang tua kerana tuanya (usianya), melainkan Allah akan membalas penghormatan dengan menghormatinya pula kerana usianya kelak." HR Tarmizi

"Barangsiapa tidak menyayangi golongan muda antara kami dan tidak mengenali hak orang tua antara kami, maka tidak termasuk dia dalam golongan kami." HR Tarmizi

So.. what's the fuss all about? Just follow the guidance, and all be in peace. And At some point, some people between them really need to learn to let it go. It's not easy, yes, but hey, who cares? We did it, and it'll be written in our names. And we have to be judge later on. Wheeeww. I really don't wanna be one of the losers (الخاسرين).

Till we meet again
Cleo
~ Creating Ideas, Developing Words ~

[ Yang Dulu ]

With Allah's love

Assalamu'alykum my dear

Aku.. lebih gemar bersama yang tiada apa-apa, tetapi kemudiannya berusaha untuk memiliki sesuatu..

Aku.. lebih selesa mengenali yang jahil, tetapi kemudiannya berusaha untuk mengetahui sesuatu..

Aku.. lebih gemar mengenali yang biasa-biasa sahaja, tetapi kemudiannya berusaha untuk menjadi sesuatu..

Aku.. lebih selesa bersama yang keras hati, tetapi kemudiannya berusaha untuk menghargai sesuatu..

Aku... lebih memilih yang menyakitiku, tetapi kemudiannya menyedarkanku dari fana..

Kerana mereka itulah yang benar-benar mengerti jalan hidupnya.. mereka itulah yang benar-benar memahami siapa dirinya.. dan mereka itulah.. yang menetapkan sendiri pengakhiran tanpa menyalahkan permulaan..

Kerana itu, aku tidak pernah bosan mendengar kisah-kisahmu.. walau kadang aku terlupa.. aku sedayanya tidak menghakimi dirimu.. aku sentiasa mengingati dirimu.. seorang yang mewarnai hidupku.. melihatkanmu, aku kenali indahnya dunia..

Tetapi maafkanku.. jika aku pergi darimu.. setelah dirimu berubah.. setelah dirimu berjaya.. setelah dirimu memiliki sesuatu.. kerana aku tak bisa mendampingi golongan bernama.. aku tak bisa mendampingi golongan bertakhta.. aku tak bisa mendampingi golongan berkuasa.. kerana aku hanya aku, yang inginkan hidup manusia biasa.. bersama manusia biasa.. yang tidak pernah lupa, apa erti hidupnya.. kerana aku tak sanggup, mengulangi hidup yang dulu.. aku tak sanggup, menghadapi yang ku tinggal dulu.. kerana aku takut, kembali terluka seperti dulu.. maafkanku.. tapi ingatlah sahabat, tidak sesekali aku membencimu.. sayangku padamu tak pernah hilang.. seandainya dirimu kembali di sisi, takkan pernah ku pergi darimu lagi ~~

Memang sukar untuk mengerti
Hidup sering disalah erti
Bila tidak didengari
Itulah dipanggil duniawi

Cleo
~ Creating Ideas, Developing Words ~

[ Bingkisan risalah... atau nota cinta?]

With Allah's love

Assalamu'alykum my dear

First of all, just a credit to my dear friend yang post tentang happiness. [here it is] It really made me think deeper.

Okay. Sebenarnya Cleo nak mula kerja-kerja tesis ni. Tapi sebelum tu, as usual. I need to let go unnecessary things yang terlalu mengganggu. Terasa nak share something yang Cleo dapat baru tadi, so here it is, sebelum mula bercerita.

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Terbaca Cleo satu buku written by Imam Hassan Al-Banna yang terselit dalam buku-buku simpanan abi. Of course, buku ni terjemahan dia. Tiga Bingkisan Risalah Da'wah. A part of it:

Kasih sayang
Demikian juga kita mengharapkan agar bangsa kita mengetahui bahawa kita mengasihi mereka lebih dari diri kita sendiri, kita mengharapkan mereka mengetahui bahawa jiwa-jiwa ini sanggup menjadi tebusan demi kepentingan mereka andainya ketinggian itu meminta tebusan. Jiwa-jiwa ini sanggup dicabut sebagai harga kepada keagungan mereka, kemuliaan mereka, agama dan cita-cita mereka andainya perkara-perkara ini memerlukan demikian. kita mengambil sikap yang demikian terhadap mereka hanyalah kerana kasih sayang telah membelenggu hati dan merajai perasaan kita, membuatkan kita tidak nyenyak tidur dan mengalirkan air mata. Amat sukar dan luar dari kesanggupan kita melihat sesuatu menimpa bangsa kita dan kita terus menyerah diri kepada kehinaan atau merelainya, atau kita terus berputus asa. Kami (Ikhwan) bekerja untuk manusia kerana Allah lebih dari kami bekerja untuk diri kami, kami untuk kamu, bukan untuk orang lain dan kami tidak akan menjadi beban kepada kamu.

This part, reminds me of who I was. Or maybe still am. Bezanya, banyak. Only He knows. Semestinya, Imam Hassan al-Banna melalui lebih banyak dugaan berbanding Cleo. And he managed to stay that way till the end. Cleo? Well, most of it shred me to pieces. And I took too much time to stand up in a piece. Lemahnya Cleo.

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So.. this is a story, of a trusting heart..

It happened, like a thousand times yet I still can't learn how to confront it. Sakit terasa, bila kita mengharapkan orang faham kata-kata kita. Especially bila dah berjanji, things will stay just between us. I'm not sure why, but this time, it really hurts. Need I to remind you, no matter how brave I am, how bold I am, how upfront I am, I'm still a woman. A lady, yang masih ada rasa malu untuk orang ketahui perkara-perkara peribadi. And yes, I am a bit mysterious and I don't like people knowing about things I don't want them to know.

Tak tahu lah Cleo. Mungkin dia anggap satu kebanggaan bagi dia atas apa yang dia tahu. *sigh* What have I ever done to you? What grudge do you have for me? You and me, we know what we said before. How can you break the promise you made? How long..? How long have they knew about this? Ya Salaam, ya Mu'allimun. How can I be such a fool to trust you in this.

My dear, dear darling. Kalau betul, awak berbangga dengan apa yang awak tahu. Why don't you just let me know. I'll make it easier for you. It's not so hard to get publicity in this kind of world, you know. I gave, much more than they asked, before. Those so called friends? They got what they want, even more. And I never did take it back from them. If.. if you really are one of those "friends", come clean. I can't kill you, for God sake. Your death, is not worth it. I'll cooperate and make sure you get what you want, to satisfy yourself. Vengeance? That's the way I did, by giving you the publicity, if that's what you're aiming for, my dear. Let's not to forget my motto: when I get serious, I'll do my best for the goal.

And never to worry, YOUR SECRET IS SAFE with me. And will be forgotten in a matter of time. What goes around comes around, my dear. What goes around.. will never fails to come around..

Bukan mudah tuk katakan benci

Bukan mainan tuk katakan sayang

Bukan sewenangnya tuk bermadah

Bukan seadanya tuk percaya

Cleo

~ Creating Ideas, Developing Words ~